I spent most of my life doubting everyone I ever met
Wondering if people would get close just to leave,
Betrayal and heartache followed happiness
Always wary of the monsters behind the friendly
faces reminding me of a time that I was cut so deep
A time that I once felt would be the last
I had to realize my worth
while coming to complete terms with my past
It was just a reconstruction period of my mind
along with some tougher skin that was needed for
the longevity of my life
No matter the outcome,
I have always loved
unconditionally
but when someone wants to love me back
I still find it hard to believe them
Difficulty separating genuine intentions
from those who can’t help but to use
The honest from the deceitful
The difference between me and you
So I have this history
By the way I can get close and pull back so easily..

Don‘t hold it against me.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez