I realized that I became apart of the problem 
when I allowed myself to believe there was nothing wrong 
when I was really hurting underneath from
the lack of effort by your actions
Somehow always left confused
Waking up to thoughts of, 
“What if I’m not good enough for you..”
How dare I-
How did I ever let someone make me feel like that?
The fact that I was always the only one always trying to reassure myself
The rose colored glasses were too big
but having self awareness to admit that it was all in my head
was also problem on its own.
I was always more than enough.

You were not good enough for me.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez