In Her Orbit

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“I have survived too much to go quietly.
Let a meteor take me.
Call the thunder for back up.
My death will be grand.
The land will crack,
the sun will eat itself…

-the day I leave.” – Rupi Kuar.

Creating stardust with ink since 2005. IG: @EchoesOf.Venus

Love has always been the constant moon that orbits my world,
A gentle pull, never to depart.
I’ve had so many chances to walk on solid ground
but I rather be the other kind of girl
In its gravitational embrace I spin and spin,
A dance of souls where we may or may not win.
Bound to the light, I drift and glide,
Around your warmth, where true heart reside
floating in time
Yours and mine
In this vast endless sky, we’re lost and found—
Two stars forever in love’s orbit,
inevitably unbound.

Utterly enamored
You are
my diamond, my beau
Together we are much rarer, softer
blissfully unashamed
I’ve seen breathtaking worlds in many eyes
But there hasn’t been any thing
quite like you
I have never really known “safe”
Neither have I been truly secure in one’s arms
To become one entity during the night
and when the sun comes out from the dawn,
we reign
I see you through skin and bones
I guess I forgot what it was like to be afraid
You’ve challenged all of my defenses
This is the most peace I’ve ever had in my life
since you came.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

My body is my home
Where my mind is free to run rampant
Dwelling vigorously,
my eternal soul
There are sturdy limbs that carry
down to the halls of my fingertips
Windows in the shape of eyes
If you look inside,
can you see the castle I have built?
I had to learn how to love myself first
before I could continue to give
Constantly in renovation
of new ways to take care
so that I am never too empty, too unkempt
too depleted, or dependent
I will never be homeless

— Take care of your home.

If I wanted to
I know how I can stop the whole world
Separating myself out-of-body
Just to become one with your every word
My own bottomless ocean of feelings…
feeling you entirely
With such unfathomable intensity
Caressing you without a single touch
I can come to you vacant
but still very much whole
so I can offer you a place to get away
And gentle reminders that keep you sane
A forbidden territory for us deeply felt kind
I find comfort in knowing that you are not alone
And not letting you forget about your soul

If I wanted to…..

It’s easy for one to hookup under the moon,
But I want you in the morning
and late afternoons.
When the sun has finished stretching
and maybe some coffee too.
Breakfast on me,
lunch on you?

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

As if the entire world wasn’t at your feet,

as you casually turned and walked away from me.

You may think that I am not meant for you,

but it turns out you were just never meant for me.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

Eyes candle lit

Chocolate covered kiss

Your hands on my hips

There’s nothing else like it

Early morning embrace

A thousand pecks to the face

Coffee with homemade pancakes

It’s been too peaceful in this place

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

You need someone

Someone other than me

Someone who would snap at you when you act different

or disappear and don’t return messages

Someone who would ignore you when you cancel plans last minute

or who would fight with you about the way you move

Every time you make one excuse after another

Someone else can waste breath telling you about yourself

but I was never that person back then

You knew I wasn’t that person with you

and that’s what made it so easy for you to take advantage

Be careful
whenever you decide to welcome yourself
into another woman’s world
You weren’t there before
where things were just fine
She could ache for real love, and the deepest affections
but she was, or is undoubtedly free.
Free from the uncertainty
and worries about another man
From her ever having to wonder if you will
change your mind about how you feel about her
Free from days where you make her choose
between your feelings or her own
nights of knowing that
by the touch of your fingers
and grind of your spine
you can suddenly make her feel
so small and misused
Free..
even from thoughts of a better man
that she deserves
Unfortunately blurred by this facade-
by your cowardly face that she “sees wonders in”
and the warmth of your chest where
she thinks she has found a home within
She is free .
Living uninterrupted and unaffected
of any half commitments, broken promises,
or pain just one person can cause
So,
do not invite yourself
Do not barge in
where you are not wanted in the first place..

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

I sway..

almost hijacked

inevitably overflowing with expression.

You stand there in complete awe

by the way I move.

It was never a secret.

You know that I live by the sun

and love by the moon…

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

Sometimes I feel like I’m going mad
Straight losing my mind
If it’s not all the voices in my head
Its the anxious uncertainty of time
Voices honestly wanting me to just pack up everything and leave
The everyday battle of if I can be the woman I’ve been building myself to be
Pressures and insecurities
Pouring out and giving too much of my love
My vulnerability
Ignoring my limits of the things that are too much
People of my past steadily haunting
Years of anger to family that were never there
Constantly absorbing everyone’s negative energy
Pulling out all of my hair
I cannot scream when I want to scream
Their hands keep trying to suffocate me
When I want to get away
my own demons tug at my feet
What if I really lose my mind…

⁃ I really need to find better release

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

“It’s nonsense” you say.
The way I see things
“I don’t (want to) understand” you say.
With the way I see things.

You only ever listen
and become concerned with the way I see things
when I am no longer concerned with trying to get you see them.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

I didn’t know what I was doing

I thought I was crazy

for ever thinking that I could find my way

in a world like yours

Little did I know,

it was where I belonged just the same

The world was ours.

Surreal
Similar to what a translight backdrop could do
so you could never tell what was real
or made up of a dream
Just like the shows and movies you see on T.V
You once had me deeply moved..
I even flaunted about how I belonged to you
Your typical Hollywood doll
but I always felt like it was something too good to be true
because everything was always all about you
Our picture became to be too frightening
so I tried working with the lighting
adding new props, switching the lens
It all became very unexciting
You had my heart way over my budget
Unbelievably in debt.
What was a promised to be paramount picture
just turned into a big unfortunate mess

Why do men do what they do,
see what they see,
or live like they live?
In my most honest opinion,
I think they’re all beautiful
I guess it is why never really had a “type”
There is something extraordinary
under all that masculinity, and seriousness
Beneath all that is made up of the “perfectionist”
The “prideful”
The “rugged” and “refined”
or a diamond in the rough
We tend to take it all for granted
We try to mold it, change it
Have you ever thought to just watch it unfold?
Have you ever daydreamed about it,
or have seen what is in their eyes?
I guess I just empathize too much with it
I mean,
at times it can be visually captivating,
and internally pleasing
Simple, but yet complicated at the same time
Full of eagerness and undying hunger
With a bit of dirt mixed with some sweat & blood
Raw to the point
Full of wonder
Masters of protection, and unforgettable love
that can be wild and free at any given moment
They are hearts tainted with so much beautiful imperfections
that is only made
because of the doubt they have of their perfection

I think i’m starting to sit with the fact that I may not see better in this world
Things always feel like they’re turning and turning

but I’m just.. Here.

You never need to thank me
for the things I say or do that are done
Not from the bottom of my heart
But wholeheartedly
Because saying
“From the bottom of my heart”
is just not enough to describe
how much I meant it

Completely.

It’s only recently that I realized

the ones from my past were not love

Love wouldn’t have hurt me the way you did.

Funny almost
How you came along
Just to make me a host
Welcoming you with open arms
My kindness was too kind
You always found me doing the most
Because I was so protective of your feelings
Always giving you a space to let loose
To scream, to vent, to grieve
I should’ve realized that this was all a ruse
Nothing between us was moving
You knew what you were doing
Genius manipulation by every mean
I was your puppet without strings
but in the end it wasn’t I who needed you
It was you who needed me
So what an unfortunate loss
But a round of applause
to the most horrid man of them all

One thing you should know about me..
Me, who has self-raised
Legs that have journeyed through
the toughest terrain
in search for peace evermore
Arms, that were made to create
I have ears that has heard it all before
and eyes that have wept lakes
over the invisible scars on my body
from knives that have names
I have been conditioned
by life lessons and the lack of kindness in people
There’s a strength in me that’s unmatched
My dreams and ambitions amplified
The look in my eyes
were once innocent, now lethal
Giving no one the power to inflict pain on me
like that again
But..
I’ve always dreamt of a life filled of romance
a burning love
deeper than how just one person can explain
Something crazy, genuine but true
However I want you to know,
I could want you more than most things
I could want you more than I dare to show
but I don’t need you.

My latest pieces

In My Orbit

Since You Came

Your Home

A Love Language

You Never Belonged Here

Beautiful You

You Deserve Each Other

Uninvited

What You Didn’t Know

Madness

My feelings

Diary of Hard Worker

Nothing like the movies

Eve’s Adam

On an Axle

You don’t need to thank me

Real Love

Soul Reaper

A Message