In Her Orbit

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“I have survived too much to go quietly.
Let a meteor take me.
Call the thunder for back up.
My death will be grand.
The land will crack,
the sun will eat itself…

-the day I leave.” – Rupi Kuar.

Creating stardust with ink since 2005. IG: @EchoesOf.Venus

My body is my home
Where my mind is free to run rampant
Dwelling vigorously,
my eternal soul
There are sturdy limbs that carry
down to the halls of my fingertips
Windows in the shape of eyes
If you look inside,
can you see the castle I have built?
I had to learn how to love myself first
before I could continue to give
Constantly in renovation
of new ways to take care
so that I am never too empty, too unkempt
too depleted, or dependent
I will never be homeless

— Take care of your home.

If I wanted to
I know how I can stop the whole world
Separating myself out-of-body
Just to become one with your every word
My own bottomless ocean of feelings…
feeling you entirely
With such unfathomable intensity
Caressing you without a single touch
I can come to you vacant
but still very much whole
so I can offer you a place to get away
And gentle reminders that keep you sane
A forbidden territory for us deeply felt kind
I find comfort in knowing that you are not alone
And not letting you forget about your soul

If I wanted to…..

It’s easy for one to hookup under the moon,
But I want you in the morning
and late afternoons.
When the sun has finished stretching
and maybe some coffee too.
Breakfast on me,
lunch on you?

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

I think i’m starting to sit with the fact that I may not see better in this world
Things always feel like they’re turning and turning

but I’m just.. Here.

You never need to thank me
for the things I say or do that are done
Not from the bottom of my heart
But wholeheartedly
Because saying
“From the bottom of my heart”
is just not enough to describe
how much I meant it

Completely.

It’s only recently that I realized

the ones from my past were not love

Love wouldn’t have hurt me the way you did.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

Funny almost
How you came along
Just to make me a host
Welcoming you with open arms
My kindness was too kind
You always found me doing the most
Because I was so protective of your feelings
Always giving you a space to let loose
To scream, to vent, to grieve
I should’ve realized that this was all a ruse
Nothing between us was moving
You knew what you were doing
Genius manipulation by every mean
I was your puppet without strings
but in the end it wasn’t I who needed you
It was you who needed me
So what an unfortunate loss
But a round of applause
to the most horrid man of them all

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

One thing you should know about me..
Me, who has self-raised
Legs that have journeyed through
the toughest terrain
in search for peace evermore
Arms, that were made to create
I have ears that has heard it all before
and eyes that have wept lakes
over the invisible scars on my body
from knives that have names
I have been conditioned
by life lessons and the lack of kindness in people
There’s a strength in me that’s unmatched
My dreams and ambitions amplified
The look in my eyes
were once innocent, now lethal
Giving no one the power to inflict pain on me
like that again
But..
I’ve always dreamt of a life filled of romance
a burning love
deeper than how just one person can explain
Something crazy, genuine but true
However I want you to know,
I could want you more than most things
I could want you more than I dare to show
but I don’t need you.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

I’m tired of grieving losses

of people who are still alive…

If you’re sad, let you be sad.
If you’re angry, be angry.
And if you feel good,
the same applies.
Nothing good comes from holding in the pain,
just like nothing good comes from not letting yourself
see the sunshine after the rain…

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

Most of it is fake
The bright lights
The crowds of people
The perfect days
And their laughter like
Nothing here is ever wrong
Like some of those stupid love songs
But we just do a good job of hiding
Behind clouds of smoke, pills, and beers
Covering our faces
Working ourselves to sleep
Being abused by our fears
Because god forbid we let ourselves feel something more
that could puts us all in even more danger out here.

Immobilizing
Drifting through time
Will it forever feel like this?
This unpredicted nothingness
Repeatedly unwanted
I can never seem to stop it
Maybe I ruin everything single thing I touch
How is it something so constant?
How easy it is to feel like dust?
And just like that you brush
me away..

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

Keep you at arms length

So that you won’t get too close

Because if not,

I just might wrap you in them.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

I’ve found
that these walls don’t quite compare
to what I’ve built within you.
I yearn for something steady.
A constant rhythmic tune.
All I’ve ever wanted was to evolve
and grow in spaces I’ve never been,
but every step I take
reminds me of what’s still missing.
What does it mean to have everything,
when it all has no deeper meaning.
What makes a home,
if you’re not coming with me?

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

There’s a universe in me,
have you seen?
Sunlight and stardust.
Multi-galaxies.
Poetry and wanderlust.
Stellar energy.
From the tips of my fingers,
to the bottom of my feet.
I could blind the whole world
with how bright
the constellations are in me.

Illustration by: Fatima Seehar
Copyright 2019 Valerie Sanchez

I want to feel you

Bit by bit

In all ways, always.

Short notes and take cares

I see you in other faces

No one else can compare

Periodic thoughts of “What if’s”

While I lose myself at night

with letters and a pen.

Sometimes I close my eyes and think

The universe must have made a terrible mistake

How could two people seem so close

And yet so far away

How can someone’s mind be so beautiful

With all that fire in their eyes

How could you be that one thing

that is not mine?

I spent most of my life doubting everyone I ever met
Wondering if people would get close just to leave,
Betrayal and heartache followed happiness
Always wary of the monsters behind the friendly
faces reminding me of a time that I was cut so deep
A time that I once felt would be the last
I had to realize my worth
while coming to complete terms with my past
It was just a reconstruction period of my mind
along with some tougher skin that was needed for
the longevity of my life
No matter the outcome,
I have always loved
unconditionally
but when someone wants to love me back
I still find it hard to believe them
Difficulty separating genuine intentions
from those who can’t help but to use
The honest from the deceitful
The difference between me and you
So I have this history
By the way I can get close and pull back so easily..

Don‘t hold it against me.

My latest pieces

Your Home

A Love Language

On an Axle

You don’t need to thank me

Real Love

Soul Reaper

A Message

The Living Dead

Release you

Living in my City

Unfortunate

New Approach

My Home

Have You Seen?

Passionately, honestly

Mistaken

Don’t Hold It Against Me